Friday, October 31, 2003
jo? u are welcome abt the choc.
glad tt u enjoyed it!
*hugs*
u haf 2 take care urself too, kay?
lurv u.
when somebody thinks that u area hypocrite n fake,
will you change for the better?
or will you just let the matter rest?
does going along with the act makes life easier?
n r u really tt magnanimous?
u are wiling to die for the ones u lurved becos u think ur death will bring them happiness?
think again.
if u loved them, would u want to see them sad?
mourning for you?
*shrug*
somebody's blog got me thinking.
further changed my impression of her.
but it's none of my business, really.
wadeva.
Thursday, October 30, 2003
qius's going off 2 thailand 2mr.
its the last day of school tomorrow.
31st oct.
im gonna miss her so much!
though she's coming back on tuesday
n i can see her on thurs.
still?!
*hugs*
enjoy urself, kay?
.
Os is next Friday!
darn darn darn.
*sweat*
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
elections was on today.
was so bored sitting there becos the frigging teacher refused to cooperate with us.
boring!
.
managed to catch karm*, vann pokk*, yu jin, su xin, pammy, elaine n jill in action!
they were absoultely fantabulous!
they were great!
karm n pokk did a great job man!
karm cld express herself so well
n vann pokk lazed ard so naturally... really in character!
*hugs them both*
yeah!
.
karm*? i hope u are feeling better by the time u read this.
u wan to tell me abt it?
just drop me a mail whenever u want, okay?
anytime.
becos i care abt u too much 2 mind.
:)
.
n gen?
i lurf ya too!
ur msg appeared in my dreambook after all!
whee!
.
feeling the pressure ald.
chinese 'O's on the 7th.
darn.
i haf 2 start cracking man.
sigh.
.
wans 2 go trick or treating!
sounds like fun!
but they dun haf this in spore.
not our culture lahs.
but i just wan 2 see it happen, u noe?
looks like fun!
sigh.
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
karm*
thank you.
thank you for your hugs.
though you always hug me with ur butt sticking out.
*tickles ears*
i lurf u.
really.
.
qius* & eiz*
thank you both too.
for putting up wif me multiple trips to the toilets.
*grins*
lurf ya both.
-hugs-
.
vann*
u never fails to cheer me up
or make me laugh
by just being you.
all the best for tomorrow, okay?
i lurf ya.
:)
The story goes that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face.
The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: "Today my best friend slapped me in the face."
They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him.
After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "Today my best friend saved my life."
The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now you write on a stone. Why?"
The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire life to forget them.
Monday, October 27, 2003
imscared.
Sunday, October 26, 2003
wadeva i do ppl seem 2 b unhappy wiv it
i get reproached fer it
ppl saying or thinking tht im a loser
a failure.a wadeva.
fine.if im really tht hateful when i do sumthing
i dun do it.u do it.
since my actions r really wrong 2 u
n u tink u r perfect.u do it.
i dun gif a damn.do it ur wae
as u lyk it.go on.
1 wrong thing i do can trigger off so many responses
but i alwaes find out abt it last
n whn i react ppl will sae tht im sensitive lahs
blah blah blah
but
/stumped at wad 2 say nxt
it's really hard 2 read others nowadays erhs?
when dey r unhappy wiv u
dey simply tell every1 but u
if da ppl ard me r lyk tht i'd rather dey dun b ard
im sorrie if tht sounds harsh
but reality is harsh
either u lyk wad i do
or u do it urself n ignore me
guess many will tk da latter
it's da ezier wae out ain't it?
i know
da pple im toking abt cld b n might b my frens
my loved ones
i treasure them but do dey appreciate me?
mayb dey do
mayb dey dun
hu noes?
*shrugs*
or mayb i dun deserved 2 b loved
it sure feels tht wae
thnx alot 2 those hu mk me feel dis wae
it had jus mk my dae
i noe i sound unreasonable
n i dun wanta b but.
i feel really despondent
tink wad u lyk.i dun care.
im tinking my wae
..qius
i promise u tht my comments will stop here
since none of us really wanta harp on it anymore
i'd stop here.
n move on.
but i seriously cant stop da words frm appearing in my mind
WAD DA FUCK IS WRONG WIV U?
u tok abt us.wad abt u?
u tink ur great? perfect?
well tink agn yea?
as far as i noe no1 is perfect in dis world.
needless 2 sae ur definitely not.
given ur actions ur really far frm perfect.
wad a back-stabbing scum u r.
we dun deserve all da thrash ur throwing at us behind our backs.
if u r really dat bold c'mon mans.
all of us r ready 2 tk it frm u.openly.
not hiding behind dat little pretense of urs.
tink u seriously needa open ur eyes bigger.
tk a look at da world ard u.
all da scums r NOTHING compared 2 u.
tht's how rotten u r.
2 da core.
u back-stabbing bitch.
im sick.
liverpool won!
finally.
got 2 attend my cousins' wedding lunch n dinner today.
another 1 of those boring event.
boo.
Saturday, October 25, 2003
Just because some one doesn't love
you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don't love
you with all they have.
They say love hides behind every corner,
then I must be walking in circles.
A true friend is someone who reaches for your
hand and touches your heart.
Never frown, even when you are sad,
because you never know who is falling
in love with your smile.
To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world
Don't cry because it is over,
smile because it happened.
Friday, October 24, 2003
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* wans > this quis's so darn wrong. smart? studious? sophisticated?
lol. really.
-shakes head-
i guess im falling sick.
or im in one of those frigging mood swings.
*shrug*
not in a mood 2 do anything productive, tt's all.
leave me alone then.
i promise i will snap out of it asap.
Thursday, October 23, 2003
seem 2 haf lost interest in loads of things lately.
as if life has just lost all its colours tt were once there.
as if they had all gone when they are still here.
the colours remain,
i can see.
but i dun feel anything. none at all.
everything's just in black n white.
*wans
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
qius? yes, im bound by the deal,
but a deal is a deal, right?
im not forced 2 hug u lahs.
so dun worry. happy 2 hug u every day!
*
dun want 2 progress 2 da next round.
dun want 2 be da next headprefect. or the assistant. or da 2nd assistant.
wants 2 concentrate on my studies.
as in gd results will make my parents happier than me becoming me the next head.
gd results will be more useful too.
dun wan 2 waste anybody's time campaigning, u see?
sigh. not interested lahs.
extra pressure n stress.
who wants?
booboo.wans is bound by our deal.
made me sound lyk i forced her 2 hug me everydae):
dun worry wanni u will do well fer ur speech tmr!
u will.n u will progress in2 da nxt rd
i believe u will.da whole of Zie will b behind u all da wae!
go wanni por!
mayb 2 mk it more effective u shud intro urself as wanni por
hahahahahahahas
nah eiz.every1 lyk 2 shop.
but dey r nt as crazy as u!
neither am i dat crazy.
hahaahahahaas.
happy shopping eiz!
surely u wld b going soon..shopaholic!
ok.hafta mk contact wiv steve kang ald.
my squaddiex ur btr b grateful hors
doing dis is lyk ergh!
wahahahas.at least i dun hafta speak 2 him
..qius
my own private hell.
its a nice phrase, isnt it?
but it means a hell of a lot 2 me.
things tt i had gone thru in da past,
things tt had made me who i am 2dae,
were not fun. simple. enjoyable. lovely.
instead, they sucked n hurt.
big time.
*
there wasnt any frigging cca 2dae,
but i didnt noe.
so i stayed in sku all da way till 3 2 find out tt there wasnt any cca.
but still, i walked all da way 2 da basketball court 2 gif qius n gen hugs.
went there becos of qius n da deal.
hahhah.. didnt mind da walk, the dist probably helped me burn @ least 10 calories of fat lahs.
*grins*
*
handed in my poster 2dae.
felt like an idiot.
but karm* was great abt everything.
she was so nice abt the whole thing!
i lurf her man.
i really do.
*
speech's 2mr.
hate public speaking.
totally.
another freaking thing 4rm da past.
wans++
Sunday, October 19, 2003
hey qius!
just popped in 2 gif u a hug, even though u are ald a sleep.
u posted ur entry @ 2224, i logged in @ 2248...
hahah, just a little.
wad happened 2 u?
aiyohs!
look on da brite side of life then.
life's supposed 2 be beautiful, correct?
although it doesnt seem like it 3/4 of da time.
but oh wells, time flies faster this way.
cleared my stuff 2dae.
realised tt i have 18 ring files in total.
14 of them are full of worksheets.
3 are empty.
n 1 is so dusty tt i dun even dare wipe the dust away.
geez. spent da whole day sneezing n coughing.
but i dun feel like a slug anymore!
*grins*
going 2pack my stuff now...
n den i shall go off 2 bed.
nite!
wad da fuck.blogger jus made my dae
conked out on me agn.
deleted everything i jus typed
so clever
2dae jus sux.alone at hm
jus stone at da tv da WHOLE dae
n no nice show at all
/yawn
everything jus sux
bathing.chair.weather.pple.blahblahblah
even soccer
bleahs
I WANTA GO SHOPPING NOW!
at least sum kinda therapy.
comfort.ahhhhhhhhhhhh
or sweat it out.
but my fat body seriously wun permit dis kinda work
it wanta snooze
as if i dun do dat enuf
/snicker
another glitch in dis god-damned dae
n it'd sum up my whole dae
THIS WORLD JUST SUX.BIG TIME.
/off 2 snooze
fuck.1st prediction wrong.but 2nd rite.
aresnal won chelsea 2-1.stupid cudicini.
wad kinda goalkeeper is he? oughta b banished.
got so much holes in him still wanta b goalie?
at least man utd won leeds 1-0!
my sis had a black face thru out dat whole match.
watching her beloved leeds thrashed by my man utd!
hahas.she cant believe it.hehes.
but arsenal still sits pretty at da top of da league.
boo*pouts*stupid chelsea.got $$ so wad mans?
still got beaten by dat goons.useless bums!
hahahahahahahahahahas.wanni por owes me a hug everydae!
cus she dun wanta kiss me! hehes.wus being notti jus nw.
anws wanni por dun b too sad lahs.
liverpool will b strong n fight ervy1 wans.
dey wun lose every wk wans! dey cant!*hugx*
damn them all.
why cant they just win 4 a change?
is it so nice n fun 2 lose 2 such a lowly club?
they are just making me mad. n crazy.
im so not going 2 the dammit sports section of da papers 2mr.
shall not waste my time.
they will be like 9th? 10th on da table now?
they used 2 be da top 3. or da top 5.
neva this bad man. neva.
*shakes head disbelivingly*
wad the hell is wrong with them?
n qius? i lurf ya loads, okay?
n remember, we haf a deal.
starting 4rm 2dae.
have a great night's slp later.
*hugs*
Saturday, October 18, 2003
arsenal n chelski r so gna draw 2nite!
n my man utd r so gna thrash leeds!
den we'd c hu haf da last luff.hehes
been bz reading becks bk dis few daes
dammit thick but almost done ald.
i lyk their wedding! so cool.hahas
feeling super lethargic nowadays.
according 2 my mum it's cus i slp too little!
wahahahas.n she dun lemme take naps late in da aft!
slp too little! tink i slp alot ald lohs.
i figure it's cus i nv exercised fer a few wks.
a few wks! i needa get dwn 2 wk!
haf ballooned over da exam!
[wanni]we were tired dat dae wahs.n i felt sick.
had a splitting headache.my head wus gna burst!
well im a pig ald! fat n lazy
slp rite aft meals.im serious.
does dat on a daily basis.*yawn*
it's not a wonder.many does dat! wahahash
spent many many hours watching autumn in my heart yesterday.
watched 4rm vcd no. 5 - 16!
me n my mother just sat there n teared.
hahahah... quite funny, come 2 think of it now.
as in how dumb we both msut have looked.
*grins*
but wad a heart-wrenching story!
some people are just not meant 2 be with u.
n life's pretty unfair too.
n karm*! see my asterisk key's working here...
just wanna tell u that junxi's not the cute guy.
he's not at all.
another 1 is cuter. u noe the super rich guy? tai xi?
yep, he's definitely betta.
felt like smacking tt stupid junxi yesterday.
love's blind, but hello?! he's willing 2 severe ties with everybody,
even his parents. n his finacee.
crazy fool.
okay, shall go watch 17 n 18 now.
n sheez?
u are da best man! love ya!
:)
Thursday, October 16, 2003
okay, so my inner child's 10 yrs old.
but it's not tt accurate cos it didn't have an available job option tt i really wanted.
hah.
My inner child is ten years old!
The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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another day spent in town.
hahahaha.... watched the rundown.
it was hilarious. really, everybody was hooting with laughter,
n qius was literally laughing out loud. as in HAHAHA.
yeah, u get the idea.
seann william scott was so farnie.
he got punched up pretty much in the show 4 toking too much.
wad a chatterbox!
wants 2 watch ameriacn pie! 1, 2, 3. all of them!
who wantes 2 help us rent the ra show?
hee hee.
went with her n la 2 gv plaza. the seats there damn stiff.
aiyohs.
after tt we went 2 meet up with gen n jo.
basically did a lot of window shopping.
ate kfc 4 lunch, n according 2 qius, it was palm-licking good!
qius bought my side, becks' autobio.
then we went 2 far east, n qius n la started 2 whine tt they want 2 go home.
sigh. both of u arhs, seriously.
qius, how can u slp so much n still not be a pig?
1 of the little wonders of this world.
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
PARTY PARTY BABY!
finally.exams end ald! been waiting fer so long fer dis time 2 arrive.
wahahas.wanni ur quizzes r so farnie!
wad charm ur own cheese?
cant wait fer tmr mans.
goin town! finally.
lyk cuz alwaes sae.can breathe town air agn!
watching da rundwn.tho niu niu nt v willing 2 watch.
shall try n persuade her.
[pokk]sorrie.watching da rundwn wiv wanni tmr!
but i so wanta watch infernal affairs!
edison! tink i watch sum other time lohs.but i seriously cant wait!
mayb we can meet up n neo-prints agn or wad?
jus lyk last time da wig wan! wahahahs
n since when i haf dat horrible long name?
wad birdie fifi trixibelle dunno wad.
wanni jus cus i told u paula yates child is called fifi trixibelle
dosen't mean im called dat!
but i tink it's cute! hehes.
[ah sze] we r gna train fer da tournament yea? my trg starts on tues.
when urs start? mayb can start oso den we can train! hehes.
but hafta persuade gen n jo 2 let us do it tho!
but im sure dey wld let us wans.dey r so nice rites?
oh! gd luck eiz n pokk fer F n N tmr yea?
ur having evam we're enjoying ourselves!
wahhaas.but it's only one more paper fer ur.
n it's F n N! can pass wans lahs.gd luck!
we're in da same hse wanni! we can go fer lessons 2gether!
but i tell ya im nt gna flood toilets wiv u kaes!
hurhur!
wah! i dun believe it!
im best known fer being a SLUT lehs!
i got wae much more $$$ den wans!
i din noe so many ppl worship me mans!
charm my own cheese?
lol. really.
rubbish... wish i haf that much money man!
*grins*
im alive!
party time!*
oh... hahahahahhahahha..
im really happy. feeling great.
went town 2dae with pammy becos birdie brain fifi trxibelle piggy qius wants 2 slp.
haha... nice name man. *grins*
we wanted 2 find stadium @ taka.. n we lost our way!
can u believe tt?
this proved tt, as silly pammy says, we studied really hard!
*grins* yeah, right.
~
on the way home just now on the mrt,
this family came on @ bradell.
they were all hokkien speaking n they spoke real loudly.
there was this girl who kept shouting n sulking @ her mom.
her mom in turn shouted back n smacked her. in front of everybody.
they alighted @ amk n the girl refused 2 budge 4rm the platform.
so her mum came over n she ran away. n believe it or not, her mum gave chase.
while shoutng at the top of her voice.
oh god. they were quite bad.
n 1 of her sons were playing 1 of the handphone polyphonic ringtone out loud.
n bobbing his head 2 the slow chinese tune. he must have thought tt he looked cool.
oh hell. they were all making fools out of themselves! the whole carriage was staring.
n frowning. n shaking their heads.
i hate it when i see people like this. as in smacking their children n yelling in the public.
quite horrible, yeahs? where are the cilvilised poeple man?!
n for godness sake, they are not supposed 2smack their children.
make them cry where every1 stares.
hah.
~
going town 2mr.
watching the rundown..
shall go watch autumn in my heart now. *grins*
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
love. lurf. luv.
they are all meaningless now.
they are just empty words.
how do know how much the person meant when she says 'ilu'?
u'd never know, really.
they might have said it out of habit.
just another way 2 end things off nicely...
like at the end of the letter.
or just when they were abt 2 log off.
if u love somebody, u will never take them 4 granted.
treat tham as plans 2 fall back on.
something like replacement.
really.
but people haf their own lives
their own stuff 2 do, plans that are far more important than you.
what can u do? force them 2 be with u?
of course not. then they will be unhappy.
dun want 2 see them unhappy,
cos we dun owe them anything. none at all, yeah?
n they always say friends are for forever.
have u ever thought just for how long they will stick around?
~ shrugs
what the hell.
this sounds cheesy
but please, if u love somebody,
say it with all ur heart.
if u are saying it just 4 the sake of saying,
keep them in ur mouth.
save every1 the trouble of having the impression that they are loved,
when they arent.
Monday, October 13, 2003
okay okay, qius. i noe u arent sleeping now.
but u told me u were going 2!
hahha. n didnt we haf fun looking @ pix of owen, louise n gemma?
hahhaaha... okay okay.
time well spent, really.
n for heaven's sake,
OWEN SO DOESNT HAVE A THICK NECK!!!
u are prejudiced man. like 1 thick neck n dislikes another.
hurmph.
super models' body?!
u wait n dream ahhs.
i will probably still be a ball even after the intensive swimming.
only a tan will prove tt i went swimming!
hahhahaha
~
wad's with this sudden change of plans?
i thot we were going out on fri?
we planned like way b4 the exams started?
way in advance.
wadeva, yeah.
maybe we should plan an outing 4 nexy yr only.
this way we can finally confirm plans.
im not sleeping now kaes wanni.
blogging.not sleeping.hehes.
i lost my chen yu bk! hafen even started studying n it's gone!
at dis time sum more.wad da hell.
shant tok abt da exams 2dae.
it's over! it's over! party baby!
ok so dere's only 1 more paper 2 go.
but it's chinese! dun mind chinese dat much lahs.
hahas.wanni por im not jus an ardent backham fan kaes.
im not blind.can see dat owen is gd.very gd in fact.
tho i dun understand y his neck is thick.wahahs
tink all gd players haf thick neck lahs.
look at ro.hehes.he's got thick neck too.
but his thick neck is wae cuter.hahas.sorry wans.
me jus dun fancy his thick neck.hehes.
shall watch da match ltr agn.worth all da time mans.
i hate da turks.hope dey get knocked out in da play-offs.
but unlikely lahs.only a few teams btr den them.
hope dey draw holland.ruud will run dem haggard.hahas
aiyohs.wans i tink u n eiz tink very far lehs.
we haf not even graduated yet!
tink of da near future.nearer things.
lyk aft da exams! our zie outing!
hehes.it's more exciting yea?
n will cum true.hehes.
me n wans going swimming on mon!
working off carbo! yay!
jus wait.we will haf super models' body in no time!
hahahahahahahahs.jus cant wait! party party baby!
had e math n ss today.
ss was horrible. didn't now wad the hell i was writing.
private companies?! i couldn't recall many of the facts.
but even if i did, i was pretty vague.
hah. oops. :)
e math was much betta man!
*happy grin*
at least i wun do too badly.
~
there was some bad press abt the england-turkey match in the papers today.
wadeva man.
stupid alpay. he jabbed beckham in the cheeck!
childish him. he must have known tt turkey was going 2 the play-offs @ 1/2 time.
how cld him?! n he clipped beckham on the head n said :" fuck ur mother"
stupid alpay.
n that idiot golakepper. he kicked dyer right in his face! how cld he!?
serve them right. hah.
even qius, the ardent beckham fan says tt england's just not the same w/o owen.
becos owen can run the defence haggard. really.
he can outrun any defender. haha.
~
by the way, qius?
u weren't a few min late.
u were 10 minutes late.
but 4 u, this is still quite a feat, huh?
*grins* u are probably taking a nap now.
u sleep so much!
~
anyway, it's the last n final paper on the 15th!
freedom's 1 step away. :)
though it's dark outside now becos it's going 2 rain,
i'm radiating happiness.
~
hah. can't stop smiling as i dream of my own future.
i always do that. plan 4 my future.
what i would like 2 do...
gives me something 2 look forward, i guess.
gets me going.
noes tt eizzie does da same thing
n we were talking abt it the other day.
she n her wrangler. :)
lurf ya, eiz.
hahahahahh.
>>> wans
Sunday, October 12, 2003
ENGLAND QUALIFIED! DEY QUALIFIED!
hahas.dey stuff da turks wiv turkeys mans.
wiv stuffing sum more! wahahas.
i still cant get over how becks miss dat penalty.
haix.he slipped at dat crucial sec n it wus up in da air liaos.
i wus shocked fer lyk few mins aft dat.cldn't close my mouth.
hahas.i noe ppl r gna haf sumthing 2 sae abt dis.
but i tink dat da turks set booby trap lehs.hahas.
i noe i noe.qt ridiculous lahs.but still.cant i dream?
england qualified ok? hahas! cldn't stop smiling yesterdae nite.
even at da wall.hahas.
n yeps.i actually woke up fer tuition!
tink mayb late fer a few min only.
hehes.
anws tmr is e math liaos! did i sound too excited?
hahs.everyone study hard kaes?
cant pass a maths oso mus pass e maths rites?
one last thing..
ENGLAND QUALIFIED!!!! DWN WIV DA TURKS!!!!
ENGLAND QUALIFIES!
hahah... got all the points of the match from qius!
she slept @ 3am n still managed 2 get up @ 7!
*impressed* n she woke up 4 math tuition!
u go, girl!
they drew by the way.
poor turkey will just have 2 work harder 2 braek the record, yeah?
hah.
Saturday, October 11, 2003
phew.
so qius n vann made up.
i was quite scared yeasterday.
i mean, it wasnt the 1st time they quarelled/fought/disagreed with each other online.
@ least it wasn't a full blown 1 this time,
not like the other time when they fought over ct online.
in the convo window.
omg. freaky, yeahs?
but sill, i lurf them.
hee hee.
match's @ 1am today!
shld i call qius n ask 4 the results?
england has 2 beat turkey man!
*
okay, so maybe i cant completely drop the person off my list
of people i luv, yet.
like u've said,
i did luv her more than i dislike her.
but i dunnoe what the hell im going thru now.
still in the process of sorting my feelings.
anyways, thanks 4 everything.
i lurf ya karm*
hope u will be ard 2 see this.
pokk.u dunno ur 12th nte arhs?
olivia dinno rmb??*grins*
anws.thnx fer helping us wiv da music.
wanni told me she got expert help frm ya.hahas
lurf ya! cus ur jus so pokky.hehes
im so looking forward 2 nxt thurs!
I WANTA GO SENTOSA LYK NOW!*big grins*
guess im outta dat fucking mood swing liaos.
mus haf scared u last nite wanni.
hahas.im back 2 functioning as normal!:)
lalalax.feeling jus so happy abt nxt thurs.
i tink im really going mad liaos.
super dwn n grouchy 1 moment
n hyper n happy da nxt.
wad's wrong wiv me?
nuthin! *grin*hahas
everybody mus jia you dao di kaes.
we're all almost dere liaos.
lyk wanni sae.reaching da finishing line ald!
sentosa here we cum!:)
Friday, October 10, 2003
haix.pok y r u so erms suspicious?
im irritated agn.
wad's wiv dis fucking mood swing mans?
ARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
save me help me!
i feel lyk dying mans.
no.im really dying.
got the music up.
let's groove 2 the music baby.
Vanni pokk! really want to thank you mans.
seriously, dun think i will be able 2 get everything done up w/o u!
u are great! absolutely wonderful.
lol... yeps, luv u a whole lot. n loads.
~wans
im here lyk finally.
been mugging hard.hopefully can scrape enuf mks 2 pass eoy.
mum n papa been real cool abt my results nowadaes.
no passes.nvm.try ur best.really lurf them!
i really dun seem 2 understand ppl ard me sumtimes.
dey act weird.dey disappoint me.n blah blah.
sure dey dun need 2 ans 2 me.no one ask dem 2.
but still.hw can sum1 groan abt sumthing dat their fren has done 2 them
when in actual fact dey do da same thing back 2 da same fren?
it's unreasonable cans? n i hate unreasonable pple.
dey seem 2 haf a head dat is bulletproof.
nv seem 2 b able 2 get thru.
it' irritating.i feel lyk jus telling them 2 fuck off.
wad da hell is wrong wiv dem?
cant dey jus get lost if dey cant tok reason?
but i cant bring da words outta my mouth.y?
tink dey r jus too precious 2 me.
i dun wanta lose them jus cus of dis.
but it's true i hate it.
my hands r ice cold nw.fer no reason.
n it's a blooody hot dae outside.
mayb im sick.or wad*shrug*
i jus dun feel lyk toking 2dae.
want so much 2 cry.
sumtimes i feel useless.
haix.i feel lyk orsino cans?
i feel lyk jus locking myself in a rm full of pillows
n cuschions n a cushy bed.
wah! n nv cum out of it.it'd b best if i haf my water bottle wiv me.
dis wae i dun even need 2 cum outta rm.
i can survive on water alone lahs.
it's my ultimate dream mans.
but seriously dis haf got nuthin 2 do wiv eoy.
dis eoy is so darn relaxing fer me.catch naps lyk every dae.
n it's passing real fast.
lyk whoosh! n it's gone.
it btr b.
-qius-
we have a class bloggie!
woah! so nice!
all thanks 2 vanni pokk!
pokk with a double 'k'...
hahas...
woo hoo!
*wolf whistle*
luv u a hell of a lot mans!
*
*
anyway, owen's not playing! boos.
n england has never won a match w/o him in the line up.
but i'm sure england can beat this record...
after all, there are other fantastic players there, right?
like gerrad n beckham. campbell. rooney.
yeah, i'm sure they can do it! n shush the bloody turkey critics up.
they are being so... full of themselves!
excuse me, but they've NEVER beat england b4, yeahs?
they have 2 win!
*
*
suddenly, there are many people online.
after so many days of little red man,
this is a nice change! hahahs.
can finally see the finishing line mans.
it's just there!
yeah!
~wans
Surrounding you are angels,
They are there to guide your path,
If weakness overcomes you,
They'll give you strength if you will ask.
They are your protection
When life seems too hard to bear,
And though you feel alone at times,
The angels ... they are there.
Their faces may be hidden
And their voices you might not hear,
But they are ALWAYS with you,
Through your laughter or your tears.
They'll walk along beside you,
They'll guide your steps along the way,
They'll comfort you and hold you,
Protect you night and day.
They'll hold to your hand tightly,
They'll not ever let it go,
And they'll gently lead you forward,
Taking each step very slow.
For even as you slumber,
They watch closely over you;
They are there beside you
In each and every thing you do.
Thursday, October 09, 2003
see? u never changes.
now u are really low in my eyes.
really low on the list of people i luv.
integrity man.
integrity.
u want me 2 spell it out 4 u?
i-n-t-e-g-r-i-t-y
learn this word well, yeah?
i'm absolutely drained.
tired.
exhausted.
sick.
i dun want all these!
i want them 2 be over.
but wad can i do?
feel like crying. shucks.
guess there's a limit 2 a person's brain usage
n her mental strength n will power.
mine's stretched over the limit.
i shall just continue studying.
go back 2 the world of 12th night.
no point mooning abt when i can't change the reality.
wish that i can be someone else.
just 4 a day. just 1.
*
it's going 2 rain now.
suits my mood perfectly.
cold.
dark.
wet.
dreary.
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
i'm so
DEAD 4 my hist.
i didn't do both my structured questions properly!
n they are worth 25 marks.
oh no! *wail*
how how how?
thot i could fall back on mu humanities...
now evrything's gone!
:(
chem's 2mr. *panic*
dun like this subject mans.
becos i really dun want 2 disappoint mrs ang.
it's kinda painful.
sigh
n lit's on fri! n after that...
think i will be more relaxed. shall pia a bit 4 chi over the weekend.
going 4 math tuition 2mr @ 1pm.
so me n qius will be hanging 2gether studying lit until time's up.
it will be like 3 hrs!
n stupid football assocuation. they refused 2 let ferdinand play!
n this match is like super crucial?!
it's their own ctry, 4 god's sake?
just becos he forgot abt a stupid random drug test.
crossing my fingers tt owen will play.
england has never won any matches w/o owen playing b4!
*proud*
hahas... he's nursing a leg injury. but they are all trying 2 speed up his recovery.
btw, turkish people are mad. n hot tempered.
they r playing this game in a suck-ie stadium with stupid hist on purpose.
n england fans are not allowed 2 watch.
wad kind of crap is this man?!
hurmph.
okay okay. shall go study now.
dun wan 2 slp @ 1.30 am again 2day.
i can go be the panda's relatives ald.
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
u cheated.
how can u?
but i guess i shldn't be surprised.
people do change.
maybe u are 1 of those who will
never change.
4 the better.
~ wans
physics was today.
didn't feel that bad.
maybe i can fail a high fail.
whatever.
n my mum was pretty nice about the whole thing.
she just told me 2 do my best 4 all the papers.
even if it's a re-test. *guilty*
guess i did really let her down.
shucks.
even my sister was nice about it.
she was the one i kept disturbing 2 ask questions
n questions
n questions about math n physics...
n she very patiently explained all the problems 2 me.
all. n she never scolded me.
believed tt i could actually do it.
i luv u lots, sis. really.
n i let everybody down.
i'm sorry.
useless me.
~ wans
Monday, October 06, 2003
i went 4 a math test today, knowing that i may fail.
but now that the truth's out.
but i was still a lille confident of getting a 58.
i 've already flunked it.
i kinda expected it, but the truth's hurts.
a lot.
it was just a stupid paper.
n i needed 58 marks 2 get a 50 for overall.
how hard was it supposed 2 be?
how impossible was that supposed to be?
i mugged hard.
really hard.
now my afforts are all wasted.
gone down that bloody drain.
it's a math.
i can do it.
i'm supposed 2.
i'm going 2 pass my re-test.
therefore, no slacking during the hols.
it's gonna be math n math n math!
damn.
~ wans
Friday, October 03, 2003
Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive
Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive
Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away
~ wans
panic attack~
oh no! exams start on the 6th!
n that is on monday.
it's friday today.
wanted 2 stay home, but decided not 2 push my luck.
cos my dada is super pissed with me.
oopsies.
i so do not want 2 get retested 4 any subjects.
can u imagine going thru the same studying process again?
*shudder*
realise tt karm can't read our bloggie.
n eizie? i will write a better testimonial 4 u. after the exams yeah?
ZIERS! we are going out on the 17th. dun forget, yeah?
make urselves free!
woo hoo... looking forward 2 that day.
then i will be free.
2 do anything i like.
just float ard, maybe.
hahas.
but meanwhile...
time 2 hit the books again!
Thursday, October 02, 2003
Happy Birthday! Karm*
tt's right. back here studying 4 my ss.
same thing goes 4 today.
if i dun finish my chapter 7, i'm not sleeping.
bahh.
i'm so dead 4 all the subjects.
a math.
e math.
physics.
oh no!
stupid books.
oh wells.
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
Happy Children's Day.
screwed up totally for jap.
oh wells. what's new?
knew tt i won't be able 2 make it anyway,
so why am i feeling this way?
definitely not a right way 2 start the exams in school.
mugging 4 social studies right now.
if i dun finish this, i'm not going to sleep.
this i swear.
plus i've 2 reply lydia's letta.
cos she means a whole lot 2 me.
will be unfair if i'm always the one giving late replies.
shall start cracking now.
a math tuition again 2mr.
still have 2 change my dental appt.
damn.
Friday, October 31, 2003
jo? u are welcome abt the choc.
glad tt u enjoyed it!
*hugs*
u haf 2 take care urself too, kay?
lurv u.
when somebody thinks that u area hypocrite n fake,
will you change for the better?
or will you just let the matter rest?
does going along with the act makes life easier?
n r u really tt magnanimous?
u are wiling to die for the ones u lurved becos u think ur death will bring them happiness?
think again.
if u loved them, would u want to see them sad?
mourning for you?
*shrug*
somebody's blog got me thinking.
further changed my impression of her.
but it's none of my business, really.
wadeva.
Thursday, October 30, 2003
qius's going off 2 thailand 2mr.
its the last day of school tomorrow.
31st oct.
im gonna miss her so much!
though she's coming back on tuesday
n i can see her on thurs.
still?!
*hugs*
enjoy urself, kay?
.
Os is next Friday!
darn darn darn.
*sweat*
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
elections was on today.
was so bored sitting there becos the frigging teacher refused to cooperate with us.
boring!
.
managed to catch karm*, vann pokk*, yu jin, su xin, pammy, elaine n jill in action!
they were absoultely fantabulous!
they were great!
karm n pokk did a great job man!
karm cld express herself so well
n vann pokk lazed ard so naturally... really in character!
*hugs them both*
yeah!
.
karm*? i hope u are feeling better by the time u read this.
u wan to tell me abt it?
just drop me a mail whenever u want, okay?
anytime.
becos i care abt u too much 2 mind.
:)
.
n gen?
i lurf ya too!
ur msg appeared in my dreambook after all!
whee!
.
feeling the pressure ald.
chinese 'O's on the 7th.
darn.
i haf 2 start cracking man.
sigh.
.
wans 2 go trick or treating!
sounds like fun!
but they dun haf this in spore.
not our culture lahs.
but i just wan 2 see it happen, u noe?
looks like fun!
sigh.
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
karm*
thank you.
thank you for your hugs.
though you always hug me with ur butt sticking out.
*tickles ears*
i lurf u.
really.
.
qius* & eiz*
thank you both too.
for putting up wif me multiple trips to the toilets.
*grins*
lurf ya both.
-hugs-
.
vann*
u never fails to cheer me up
or make me laugh
by just being you.
all the best for tomorrow, okay?
i lurf ya.
:)
The story goes that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face.
The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: "Today my best friend slapped me in the face."
They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him.
After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "Today my best friend saved my life."
The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now you write on a stone. Why?"
The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire life to forget them.
Monday, October 27, 2003
imscared.
Sunday, October 26, 2003
wadeva i do ppl seem 2 b unhappy wiv it
i get reproached fer it
ppl saying or thinking tht im a loser
a failure.a wadeva.
fine.if im really tht hateful when i do sumthing
i dun do it.u do it.
since my actions r really wrong 2 u
n u tink u r perfect.u do it.
i dun gif a damn.do it ur wae
as u lyk it.go on.
1 wrong thing i do can trigger off so many responses
but i alwaes find out abt it last
n whn i react ppl will sae tht im sensitive lahs
blah blah blah
but
/stumped at wad 2 say nxt
it's really hard 2 read others nowadays erhs?
when dey r unhappy wiv u
dey simply tell every1 but u
if da ppl ard me r lyk tht i'd rather dey dun b ard
im sorrie if tht sounds harsh
but reality is harsh
either u lyk wad i do
or u do it urself n ignore me
guess many will tk da latter
it's da ezier wae out ain't it?
i know
da pple im toking abt cld b n might b my frens
my loved ones
i treasure them but do dey appreciate me?
mayb dey do
mayb dey dun
hu noes?
*shrugs*
or mayb i dun deserved 2 b loved
it sure feels tht wae
thnx alot 2 those hu mk me feel dis wae
it had jus mk my dae
i noe i sound unreasonable
n i dun wanta b but.
i feel really despondent
tink wad u lyk.i dun care.
im tinking my wae
..qius
i promise u tht my comments will stop here
since none of us really wanta harp on it anymore
i'd stop here.
n move on.
but i seriously cant stop da words frm appearing in my mind
WAD DA FUCK IS WRONG WIV U?
u tok abt us.wad abt u?
u tink ur great? perfect?
well tink agn yea?
as far as i noe no1 is perfect in dis world.
needless 2 sae ur definitely not.
given ur actions ur really far frm perfect.
wad a back-stabbing scum u r.
we dun deserve all da thrash ur throwing at us behind our backs.
if u r really dat bold c'mon mans.
all of us r ready 2 tk it frm u.openly.
not hiding behind dat little pretense of urs.
tink u seriously needa open ur eyes bigger.
tk a look at da world ard u.
all da scums r NOTHING compared 2 u.
tht's how rotten u r.
2 da core.
u back-stabbing bitch.
im sick.
liverpool won!
finally.
got 2 attend my cousins' wedding lunch n dinner today.
another 1 of those boring event.
boo.
Saturday, October 25, 2003
Just because some one doesn't love
you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don't love
you with all they have.
They say love hides behind every corner,
then I must be walking in circles.
A true friend is someone who reaches for your
hand and touches your heart.
Never frown, even when you are sad,
because you never know who is falling
in love with your smile.
To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world
Don't cry because it is over,
smile because it happened.
Friday, October 24, 2003
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which eye are you? brought to you by Quizilla
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* wans > this quis's so darn wrong. smart? studious? sophisticated?
lol. really.
-shakes head-
i guess im falling sick.
or im in one of those frigging mood swings.
*shrug*
not in a mood 2 do anything productive, tt's all.
leave me alone then.
i promise i will snap out of it asap.
Thursday, October 23, 2003
seem 2 haf lost interest in loads of things lately.
as if life has just lost all its colours tt were once there.
as if they had all gone when they are still here.
the colours remain,
i can see.
but i dun feel anything. none at all.
everything's just in black n white.
*wans
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
qius? yes, im bound by the deal,
but a deal is a deal, right?
im not forced 2 hug u lahs.
so dun worry. happy 2 hug u every day!
*
dun want 2 progress 2 da next round.
dun want 2 be da next headprefect. or the assistant. or da 2nd assistant.
wants 2 concentrate on my studies.
as in gd results will make my parents happier than me becoming me the next head.
gd results will be more useful too.
dun wan 2 waste anybody's time campaigning, u see?
sigh. not interested lahs.
extra pressure n stress.
who wants?
booboo.wans is bound by our deal.
made me sound lyk i forced her 2 hug me everydae):
dun worry wanni u will do well fer ur speech tmr!
u will.n u will progress in2 da nxt rd
i believe u will.da whole of Zie will b behind u all da wae!
go wanni por!
mayb 2 mk it more effective u shud intro urself as wanni por
hahahahahahahas
nah eiz.every1 lyk 2 shop.
but dey r nt as crazy as u!
neither am i dat crazy.
hahaahahahaas.
happy shopping eiz!
surely u wld b going soon..shopaholic!
ok.hafta mk contact wiv steve kang ald.
my squaddiex ur btr b grateful hors
doing dis is lyk ergh!
wahahahas.at least i dun hafta speak 2 him
..qius
my own private hell.
its a nice phrase, isnt it?
but it means a hell of a lot 2 me.
things tt i had gone thru in da past,
things tt had made me who i am 2dae,
were not fun. simple. enjoyable. lovely.
instead, they sucked n hurt.
big time.
*
there wasnt any frigging cca 2dae,
but i didnt noe.
so i stayed in sku all da way till 3 2 find out tt there wasnt any cca.
but still, i walked all da way 2 da basketball court 2 gif qius n gen hugs.
went there becos of qius n da deal.
hahhah.. didnt mind da walk, the dist probably helped me burn @ least 10 calories of fat lahs.
*grins*
*
handed in my poster 2dae.
felt like an idiot.
but karm* was great abt everything.
she was so nice abt the whole thing!
i lurf her man.
i really do.
*
speech's 2mr.
hate public speaking.
totally.
another freaking thing 4rm da past.
wans++
Sunday, October 19, 2003
hey qius!
just popped in 2 gif u a hug, even though u are ald a sleep.
u posted ur entry @ 2224, i logged in @ 2248...
hahah, just a little.
wad happened 2 u?
aiyohs!
look on da brite side of life then.
life's supposed 2 be beautiful, correct?
although it doesnt seem like it 3/4 of da time.
but oh wells, time flies faster this way.
cleared my stuff 2dae.
realised tt i have 18 ring files in total.
14 of them are full of worksheets.
3 are empty.
n 1 is so dusty tt i dun even dare wipe the dust away.
geez. spent da whole day sneezing n coughing.
but i dun feel like a slug anymore!
*grins*
going 2pack my stuff now...
n den i shall go off 2 bed.
nite!
wad da fuck.blogger jus made my dae
conked out on me agn.
deleted everything i jus typed
so clever
2dae jus sux.alone at hm
jus stone at da tv da WHOLE dae
n no nice show at all
/yawn
everything jus sux
bathing.chair.weather.pple.blahblahblah
even soccer
bleahs
I WANTA GO SHOPPING NOW!
at least sum kinda therapy.
comfort.ahhhhhhhhhhhh
or sweat it out.
but my fat body seriously wun permit dis kinda work
it wanta snooze
as if i dun do dat enuf
/snicker
another glitch in dis god-damned dae
n it'd sum up my whole dae
THIS WORLD JUST SUX.BIG TIME.
/off 2 snooze
fuck.1st prediction wrong.but 2nd rite.
aresnal won chelsea 2-1.stupid cudicini.
wad kinda goalkeeper is he? oughta b banished.
got so much holes in him still wanta b goalie?
at least man utd won leeds 1-0!
my sis had a black face thru out dat whole match.
watching her beloved leeds thrashed by my man utd!
hahas.she cant believe it.hehes.
but arsenal still sits pretty at da top of da league.
boo*pouts*stupid chelsea.got $$ so wad mans?
still got beaten by dat goons.useless bums!
hahahahahahahahahahas.wanni por owes me a hug everydae!
cus she dun wanta kiss me! hehes.wus being notti jus nw.
anws wanni por dun b too sad lahs.
liverpool will b strong n fight ervy1 wans.
dey wun lose every wk wans! dey cant!*hugx*
damn them all.
why cant they just win 4 a change?
is it so nice n fun 2 lose 2 such a lowly club?
they are just making me mad. n crazy.
im so not going 2 the dammit sports section of da papers 2mr.
shall not waste my time.
they will be like 9th? 10th on da table now?
they used 2 be da top 3. or da top 5.
neva this bad man. neva.
*shakes head disbelivingly*
wad the hell is wrong with them?
n qius? i lurf ya loads, okay?
n remember, we haf a deal.
starting 4rm 2dae.
have a great night's slp later.
*hugs*
Saturday, October 18, 2003
arsenal n chelski r so gna draw 2nite!
n my man utd r so gna thrash leeds!
den we'd c hu haf da last luff.hehes
been bz reading becks bk dis few daes
dammit thick but almost done ald.
i lyk their wedding! so cool.hahas
feeling super lethargic nowadays.
according 2 my mum it's cus i slp too little!
wahahahas.n she dun lemme take naps late in da aft!
slp too little! tink i slp alot ald lohs.
i figure it's cus i nv exercised fer a few wks.
a few wks! i needa get dwn 2 wk!
haf ballooned over da exam!
[wanni]we were tired dat dae wahs.n i felt sick.
had a splitting headache.my head wus gna burst!
well im a pig ald! fat n lazy
slp rite aft meals.im serious.
does dat on a daily basis.*yawn*
it's not a wonder.many does dat! wahahash
spent many many hours watching autumn in my heart yesterday.
watched 4rm vcd no. 5 - 16!
me n my mother just sat there n teared.
hahahah... quite funny, come 2 think of it now.
as in how dumb we both msut have looked.
*grins*
but wad a heart-wrenching story!
some people are just not meant 2 be with u.
n life's pretty unfair too.
n karm*! see my asterisk key's working here...
just wanna tell u that junxi's not the cute guy.
he's not at all.
another 1 is cuter. u noe the super rich guy? tai xi?
yep, he's definitely betta.
felt like smacking tt stupid junxi yesterday.
love's blind, but hello?! he's willing 2 severe ties with everybody,
even his parents. n his finacee.
crazy fool.
okay, shall go watch 17 n 18 now.
n sheez?
u are da best man! love ya!
:)
Thursday, October 16, 2003
okay, so my inner child's 10 yrs old.
but it's not tt accurate cos it didn't have an available job option tt i really wanted.
hah.
My inner child is ten years old!
The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.
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another day spent in town.
hahahaha.... watched the rundown.
it was hilarious. really, everybody was hooting with laughter,
n qius was literally laughing out loud. as in HAHAHA.
yeah, u get the idea.
seann william scott was so farnie.
he got punched up pretty much in the show 4 toking too much.
wad a chatterbox!
wants 2 watch ameriacn pie! 1, 2, 3. all of them!
who wantes 2 help us rent the ra show?
hee hee.
went with her n la 2 gv plaza. the seats there damn stiff.
aiyohs.
after tt we went 2 meet up with gen n jo.
basically did a lot of window shopping.
ate kfc 4 lunch, n according 2 qius, it was palm-licking good!
qius bought my side, becks' autobio.
then we went 2 far east, n qius n la started 2 whine tt they want 2 go home.
sigh. both of u arhs, seriously.
qius, how can u slp so much n still not be a pig?
1 of the little wonders of this world.
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
PARTY PARTY BABY!
finally.exams end ald! been waiting fer so long fer dis time 2 arrive.
wahahas.wanni ur quizzes r so farnie!
wad charm ur own cheese?
cant wait fer tmr mans.
goin town! finally.
lyk cuz alwaes sae.can breathe town air agn!
watching da rundwn.tho niu niu nt v willing 2 watch.
shall try n persuade her.
[pokk]sorrie.watching da rundwn wiv wanni tmr!
but i so wanta watch infernal affairs!
edison! tink i watch sum other time lohs.but i seriously cant wait!
mayb we can meet up n neo-prints agn or wad?
jus lyk last time da wig wan! wahahahs
n since when i haf dat horrible long name?
wad birdie fifi trixibelle dunno wad.
wanni jus cus i told u paula yates child is called fifi trixibelle
dosen't mean im called dat!
but i tink it's cute! hehes.
[ah sze] we r gna train fer da tournament yea? my trg starts on tues.
when urs start? mayb can start oso den we can train! hehes.
but hafta persuade gen n jo 2 let us do it tho!
but im sure dey wld let us wans.dey r so nice rites?
oh! gd luck eiz n pokk fer F n N tmr yea?
ur having evam we're enjoying ourselves!
wahhaas.but it's only one more paper fer ur.
n it's F n N! can pass wans lahs.gd luck!
we're in da same hse wanni! we can go fer lessons 2gether!
but i tell ya im nt gna flood toilets wiv u kaes!
hurhur!
wah! i dun believe it!
im best known fer being a SLUT lehs!
i got wae much more $$$ den wans!
i din noe so many ppl worship me mans!
charm my own cheese?
lol. really.
rubbish... wish i haf that much money man!
*grins*
im alive!
party time!*
oh... hahahahahhahahha..
im really happy. feeling great.
went town 2dae with pammy becos birdie brain fifi trxibelle piggy qius wants 2 slp.
haha... nice name man. *grins*
we wanted 2 find stadium @ taka.. n we lost our way!
can u believe tt?
this proved tt, as silly pammy says, we studied really hard!
*grins* yeah, right.
~
on the way home just now on the mrt,
this family came on @ bradell.
they were all hokkien speaking n they spoke real loudly.
there was this girl who kept shouting n sulking @ her mom.
her mom in turn shouted back n smacked her. in front of everybody.
they alighted @ amk n the girl refused 2 budge 4rm the platform.
so her mum came over n she ran away. n believe it or not, her mum gave chase.
while shoutng at the top of her voice.
oh god. they were quite bad.
n 1 of her sons were playing 1 of the handphone polyphonic ringtone out loud.
n bobbing his head 2 the slow chinese tune. he must have thought tt he looked cool.
oh hell. they were all making fools out of themselves! the whole carriage was staring.
n frowning. n shaking their heads.
i hate it when i see people like this. as in smacking their children n yelling in the public.
quite horrible, yeahs? where are the cilvilised poeple man?!
n for godness sake, they are not supposed 2smack their children.
make them cry where every1 stares.
hah.
~
going town 2mr.
watching the rundown..
shall go watch autumn in my heart now. *grins*
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
love. lurf. luv.
they are all meaningless now.
they are just empty words.
how do know how much the person meant when she says 'ilu'?
u'd never know, really.
they might have said it out of habit.
just another way 2 end things off nicely...
like at the end of the letter.
or just when they were abt 2 log off.
if u love somebody, u will never take them 4 granted.
treat tham as plans 2 fall back on.
something like replacement.
really.
but people haf their own lives
their own stuff 2 do, plans that are far more important than you.
what can u do? force them 2 be with u?
of course not. then they will be unhappy.
dun want 2 see them unhappy,
cos we dun owe them anything. none at all, yeah?
n they always say friends are for forever.
have u ever thought just for how long they will stick around?
~ shrugs
what the hell.
this sounds cheesy
but please, if u love somebody,
say it with all ur heart.
if u are saying it just 4 the sake of saying,
keep them in ur mouth.
save every1 the trouble of having the impression that they are loved,
when they arent.
Monday, October 13, 2003
okay okay, qius. i noe u arent sleeping now.
but u told me u were going 2!
hahha. n didnt we haf fun looking @ pix of owen, louise n gemma?
hahhaaha... okay okay.
time well spent, really.
n for heaven's sake,
OWEN SO DOESNT HAVE A THICK NECK!!!
u are prejudiced man. like 1 thick neck n dislikes another.
hurmph.
super models' body?!
u wait n dream ahhs.
i will probably still be a ball even after the intensive swimming.
only a tan will prove tt i went swimming!
hahhahaha
~
wad's with this sudden change of plans?
i thot we were going out on fri?
we planned like way b4 the exams started?
way in advance.
wadeva, yeah.
maybe we should plan an outing 4 nexy yr only.
this way we can finally confirm plans.
im not sleeping now kaes wanni.
blogging.not sleeping.hehes.
i lost my chen yu bk! hafen even started studying n it's gone!
at dis time sum more.wad da hell.
shant tok abt da exams 2dae.
it's over! it's over! party baby!
ok so dere's only 1 more paper 2 go.
but it's chinese! dun mind chinese dat much lahs.
hahas.wanni por im not jus an ardent backham fan kaes.
im not blind.can see dat owen is gd.very gd in fact.
tho i dun understand y his neck is thick.wahahs
tink all gd players haf thick neck lahs.
look at ro.hehes.he's got thick neck too.
but his thick neck is wae cuter.hahas.sorry wans.
me jus dun fancy his thick neck.hehes.
shall watch da match ltr agn.worth all da time mans.
i hate da turks.hope dey get knocked out in da play-offs.
but unlikely lahs.only a few teams btr den them.
hope dey draw holland.ruud will run dem haggard.hahas
aiyohs.wans i tink u n eiz tink very far lehs.
we haf not even graduated yet!
tink of da near future.nearer things.
lyk aft da exams! our zie outing!
hehes.it's more exciting yea?
n will cum true.hehes.
me n wans going swimming on mon!
working off carbo! yay!
jus wait.we will haf super models' body in no time!
hahahahahahahahs.jus cant wait! party party baby!
had e math n ss today.
ss was horrible. didn't now wad the hell i was writing.
private companies?! i couldn't recall many of the facts.
but even if i did, i was pretty vague.
hah. oops. :)
e math was much betta man!
*happy grin*
at least i wun do too badly.
~
there was some bad press abt the england-turkey match in the papers today.
wadeva man.
stupid alpay. he jabbed beckham in the cheeck!
childish him. he must have known tt turkey was going 2 the play-offs @ 1/2 time.
how cld him?! n he clipped beckham on the head n said :" fuck ur mother"
stupid alpay.
n that idiot golakepper. he kicked dyer right in his face! how cld he!?
serve them right. hah.
even qius, the ardent beckham fan says tt england's just not the same w/o owen.
becos owen can run the defence haggard. really.
he can outrun any defender. haha.
~
by the way, qius?
u weren't a few min late.
u were 10 minutes late.
but 4 u, this is still quite a feat, huh?
*grins* u are probably taking a nap now.
u sleep so much!
~
anyway, it's the last n final paper on the 15th!
freedom's 1 step away. :)
though it's dark outside now becos it's going 2 rain,
i'm radiating happiness.
~
hah. can't stop smiling as i dream of my own future.
i always do that. plan 4 my future.
what i would like 2 do...
gives me something 2 look forward, i guess.
gets me going.
noes tt eizzie does da same thing
n we were talking abt it the other day.
she n her wrangler. :)
lurf ya, eiz.
hahahahahh.
>>> wans
Sunday, October 12, 2003
ENGLAND QUALIFIED! DEY QUALIFIED!
hahas.dey stuff da turks wiv turkeys mans.
wiv stuffing sum more! wahahas.
i still cant get over how becks miss dat penalty.
haix.he slipped at dat crucial sec n it wus up in da air liaos.
i wus shocked fer lyk few mins aft dat.cldn't close my mouth.
hahas.i noe ppl r gna haf sumthing 2 sae abt dis.
but i tink dat da turks set booby trap lehs.hahas.
i noe i noe.qt ridiculous lahs.but still.cant i dream?
england qualified ok? hahas! cldn't stop smiling yesterdae nite.
even at da wall.hahas.
n yeps.i actually woke up fer tuition!
tink mayb late fer a few min only.
hehes.
anws tmr is e math liaos! did i sound too excited?
hahs.everyone study hard kaes?
cant pass a maths oso mus pass e maths rites?
one last thing..
ENGLAND QUALIFIED!!!! DWN WIV DA TURKS!!!!
ENGLAND QUALIFIES!
hahah... got all the points of the match from qius!
she slept @ 3am n still managed 2 get up @ 7!
*impressed* n she woke up 4 math tuition!
u go, girl!
they drew by the way.
poor turkey will just have 2 work harder 2 braek the record, yeah?
hah.
Saturday, October 11, 2003
phew.
so qius n vann made up.
i was quite scared yeasterday.
i mean, it wasnt the 1st time they quarelled/fought/disagreed with each other online.
@ least it wasn't a full blown 1 this time,
not like the other time when they fought over ct online.
in the convo window.
omg. freaky, yeahs?
but sill, i lurf them.
hee hee.
match's @ 1am today!
shld i call qius n ask 4 the results?
england has 2 beat turkey man!
*
okay, so maybe i cant completely drop the person off my list
of people i luv, yet.
like u've said,
i did luv her more than i dislike her.
but i dunnoe what the hell im going thru now.
still in the process of sorting my feelings.
anyways, thanks 4 everything.
i lurf ya karm*
hope u will be ard 2 see this.
pokk.u dunno ur 12th nte arhs?
olivia dinno rmb??*grins*
anws.thnx fer helping us wiv da music.
wanni told me she got expert help frm ya.hahas
lurf ya! cus ur jus so pokky.hehes
im so looking forward 2 nxt thurs!
I WANTA GO SENTOSA LYK NOW!*big grins*
guess im outta dat fucking mood swing liaos.
mus haf scared u last nite wanni.
hahas.im back 2 functioning as normal!:)
lalalax.feeling jus so happy abt nxt thurs.
i tink im really going mad liaos.
super dwn n grouchy 1 moment
n hyper n happy da nxt.
wad's wrong wiv me?
nuthin! *grin*hahas
everybody mus jia you dao di kaes.
we're all almost dere liaos.
lyk wanni sae.reaching da finishing line ald!
sentosa here we cum!:)
Friday, October 10, 2003
haix.pok y r u so erms suspicious?
im irritated agn.
wad's wiv dis fucking mood swing mans?
ARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
save me help me!
i feel lyk dying mans.
no.im really dying.
got the music up.
let's groove 2 the music baby.
Vanni pokk! really want to thank you mans.
seriously, dun think i will be able 2 get everything done up w/o u!
u are great! absolutely wonderful.
lol... yeps, luv u a whole lot. n loads.
~wans
im here lyk finally.
been mugging hard.hopefully can scrape enuf mks 2 pass eoy.
mum n papa been real cool abt my results nowadaes.
no passes.nvm.try ur best.really lurf them!
i really dun seem 2 understand ppl ard me sumtimes.
dey act weird.dey disappoint me.n blah blah.
sure dey dun need 2 ans 2 me.no one ask dem 2.
but still.hw can sum1 groan abt sumthing dat their fren has done 2 them
when in actual fact dey do da same thing back 2 da same fren?
it's unreasonable cans? n i hate unreasonable pple.
dey seem 2 haf a head dat is bulletproof.
nv seem 2 b able 2 get thru.
it' irritating.i feel lyk jus telling them 2 fuck off.
wad da hell is wrong wiv dem?
cant dey jus get lost if dey cant tok reason?
but i cant bring da words outta my mouth.y?
tink dey r jus too precious 2 me.
i dun wanta lose them jus cus of dis.
but it's true i hate it.
my hands r ice cold nw.fer no reason.
n it's a blooody hot dae outside.
mayb im sick.or wad*shrug*
i jus dun feel lyk toking 2dae.
want so much 2 cry.
sumtimes i feel useless.
haix.i feel lyk orsino cans?
i feel lyk jus locking myself in a rm full of pillows
n cuschions n a cushy bed.
wah! n nv cum out of it.it'd b best if i haf my water bottle wiv me.
dis wae i dun even need 2 cum outta rm.
i can survive on water alone lahs.
it's my ultimate dream mans.
but seriously dis haf got nuthin 2 do wiv eoy.
dis eoy is so darn relaxing fer me.catch naps lyk every dae.
n it's passing real fast.
lyk whoosh! n it's gone.
it btr b.
-qius-
we have a class bloggie!
woah! so nice!
all thanks 2 vanni pokk!
pokk with a double 'k'...
hahas...
woo hoo!
*wolf whistle*
luv u a hell of a lot mans!
*
*
anyway, owen's not playing! boos.
n england has never won a match w/o him in the line up.
but i'm sure england can beat this record...
after all, there are other fantastic players there, right?
like gerrad n beckham. campbell. rooney.
yeah, i'm sure they can do it! n shush the bloody turkey critics up.
they are being so... full of themselves!
excuse me, but they've NEVER beat england b4, yeahs?
they have 2 win!
*
*
suddenly, there are many people online.
after so many days of little red man,
this is a nice change! hahahs.
can finally see the finishing line mans.
it's just there!
yeah!
~wans
Surrounding you are angels,
They are there to guide your path,
If weakness overcomes you,
They'll give you strength if you will ask.
They are your protection
When life seems too hard to bear,
And though you feel alone at times,
The angels ... they are there.
Their faces may be hidden
And their voices you might not hear,
But they are ALWAYS with you,
Through your laughter or your tears.
They'll walk along beside you,
They'll guide your steps along the way,
They'll comfort you and hold you,
Protect you night and day.
They'll hold to your hand tightly,
They'll not ever let it go,
And they'll gently lead you forward,
Taking each step very slow.
For even as you slumber,
They watch closely over you;
They are there beside you
In each and every thing you do.
Thursday, October 09, 2003
see? u never changes.
now u are really low in my eyes.
really low on the list of people i luv.
integrity man.
integrity.
u want me 2 spell it out 4 u?
i-n-t-e-g-r-i-t-y
learn this word well, yeah?
i'm absolutely drained.
tired.
exhausted.
sick.
i dun want all these!
i want them 2 be over.
but wad can i do?
feel like crying. shucks.
guess there's a limit 2 a person's brain usage
n her mental strength n will power.
mine's stretched over the limit.
i shall just continue studying.
go back 2 the world of 12th night.
no point mooning abt when i can't change the reality.
wish that i can be someone else.
just 4 a day. just 1.
*
it's going 2 rain now.
suits my mood perfectly.
cold.
dark.
wet.
dreary.
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
i'm so
DEAD 4 my hist.
i didn't do both my structured questions properly!
n they are worth 25 marks.
oh no! *wail*
how how how?
thot i could fall back on mu humanities...
now evrything's gone!
:(
chem's 2mr. *panic*
dun like this subject mans.
becos i really dun want 2 disappoint mrs ang.
it's kinda painful.
sigh
n lit's on fri! n after that...
think i will be more relaxed. shall pia a bit 4 chi over the weekend.
going 4 math tuition 2mr @ 1pm.
so me n qius will be hanging 2gether studying lit until time's up.
it will be like 3 hrs!
n stupid football assocuation. they refused 2 let ferdinand play!
n this match is like super crucial?!
it's their own ctry, 4 god's sake?
just becos he forgot abt a stupid random drug test.
crossing my fingers tt owen will play.
england has never won any matches w/o owen playing b4!
*proud*
hahas... he's nursing a leg injury. but they are all trying 2 speed up his recovery.
btw, turkish people are mad. n hot tempered.
they r playing this game in a suck-ie stadium with stupid hist on purpose.
n england fans are not allowed 2 watch.
wad kind of crap is this man?!
hurmph.
okay okay. shall go study now.
dun wan 2 slp @ 1.30 am again 2day.
i can go be the panda's relatives ald.
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
u cheated.
how can u?
but i guess i shldn't be surprised.
people do change.
maybe u are 1 of those who will
never change.
4 the better.
~ wans
physics was today.
didn't feel that bad.
maybe i can fail a high fail.
whatever.
n my mum was pretty nice about the whole thing.
she just told me 2 do my best 4 all the papers.
even if it's a re-test. *guilty*
guess i did really let her down.
shucks.
even my sister was nice about it.
she was the one i kept disturbing 2 ask questions
n questions
n questions about math n physics...
n she very patiently explained all the problems 2 me.
all. n she never scolded me.
believed tt i could actually do it.
i luv u lots, sis. really.
n i let everybody down.
i'm sorry.
useless me.
~ wans
Monday, October 06, 2003
i went 4 a math test today, knowing that i may fail.
but now that the truth's out.
but i was still a lille confident of getting a 58.
i 've already flunked it.
i kinda expected it, but the truth's hurts.
a lot.
it was just a stupid paper.
n i needed 58 marks 2 get a 50 for overall.
how hard was it supposed 2 be?
how impossible was that supposed to be?
i mugged hard.
really hard.
now my afforts are all wasted.
gone down that bloody drain.
it's a math.
i can do it.
i'm supposed 2.
i'm going 2 pass my re-test.
therefore, no slacking during the hols.
it's gonna be math n math n math!
damn.
~ wans
Friday, October 03, 2003
Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive
Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive
Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away
~ wans
panic attack~
oh no! exams start on the 6th!
n that is on monday.
it's friday today.
wanted 2 stay home, but decided not 2 push my luck.
cos my dada is super pissed with me.
oopsies.
i so do not want 2 get retested 4 any subjects.
can u imagine going thru the same studying process again?
*shudder*
realise tt karm can't read our bloggie.
n eizie? i will write a better testimonial 4 u. after the exams yeah?
ZIERS! we are going out on the 17th. dun forget, yeah?
make urselves free!
woo hoo... looking forward 2 that day.
then i will be free.
2 do anything i like.
just float ard, maybe.
hahas.
but meanwhile...
time 2 hit the books again!
Thursday, October 02, 2003
Happy Birthday! Karm*
tt's right. back here studying 4 my ss.
same thing goes 4 today.
if i dun finish my chapter 7, i'm not sleeping.
bahh.
i'm so dead 4 all the subjects.
a math.
e math.
physics.
oh no!
stupid books.
oh wells.
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
Happy Children's Day.
screwed up totally for jap.
oh wells. what's new?
knew tt i won't be able 2 make it anyway,
so why am i feeling this way?
definitely not a right way 2 start the exams in school.
mugging 4 social studies right now.
if i dun finish this, i'm not going to sleep.
this i swear.
plus i've 2 reply lydia's letta.
cos she means a whole lot 2 me.
will be unfair if i'm always the one giving late replies.
shall start cracking now.
a math tuition again 2mr.
still have 2 change my dental appt.
damn.
