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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
20:45

Chem lessons in Sri Lanka are bearable, I supposed haha. With all the teleporting by jumping simultaneously and riding on tigers when answering questions :D As usual, buddy quah and I were being stupid in the jungle-like conditions during CLAB. Haha after a while, there was just this constant buzz in my head/ oh gee, two hours at a shot's too long!

Library's now one of my most favourite places to hang out at after school. Haha buddy and I stalked people from behind the computers today (: and yes yes, we had fun whee!

Recently, I've picked up the annoying habit of scratching myself so hard that I start to bleed :( argh!!

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love.

Haha when was the last time anyone heard this song! --grins-

QUAH & DIANA!
(: I LOVE LOVE the both of you too, alot alot alot.

Alright, graphing techniques (I) beckons and I'm off!

'wans

Monday, February 27, 2006
22:26

Today, peipei quah qiu and I walked around the school, peered into dustbins, toilets and went to every cubbyholes in a bid to recover peipei's bag and wallet.
So, if you are the inconsiderate and extremely sickening person out there, please return her bag and wallet. What's the point of such an immature act!
--growls-

PEIPEI!
We're terribly sorry for leaving yuor bag behine eh :/ should have taken your wallet at least! And it was the weirdest thing, we actually did entertain the thought of bringing your wallet with us to our GP tutorial before we decided not to and went on to stuff the chilli tapioca and empty sticko packaging into your bag instead. Sorry sorry!

Sunday, February 26, 2006
22:19

I went to pay my respects to my late 3rd uncle today. He died around the eve of CNY and my religion didn't allow me to attend the funeral then. While the ceremony was going on, all the little children were running around and bubbling with laughter. And for a while, I envied their innocence.
The envy lasted only that moment, before the chantings brought me back to the ceremonial hall. Oh yes, my mind had been wandering.

'wans

stars dont stop falling down/
in my world of make believe.

Saturday, February 25, 2006
23:45

I just deleted a whole chunk of entry because it was so senseless and incoherent.

I'm not in the mood for niceties tonight.




qiu.

23:34

saturdays are always good eh?

it's time for her to move on, they say.
and when she cries herself to sleep tonight, she'll be crying for herself and nobody else.

'wans

00:15

and it's my mum's birthday today (: happy birthday mum! haha though she doesnt come here, it's just the right thing to do eh (:

interhouse drama was quite fun, though i've to explain to my dear tenners the moral/summary after each performance haha. anyway puma was the best house; we garnered both the best actor award (earnest!) and the most popular house award.
haha before this, buddy quah and i (zibbie was with us for the 1st part) watched along came polly at the library and we were gushing and gushing over jennifer anniston --grins- ooh lah lah! it was sucha airhead show but yeah, i loved it!
and after the movie we went to watch the finals for dota challenge and so pak's team won :D haha trust me, it didnt make any sense to me at all. by the time i got royston to explain to me what was happening at a particular scene, the scene would have changed and i would be at a loss again. heh dota --shakes head- not my cup of tea.

forgot to eat dinner in the midst of all the excitment and i only realised my stomach was empty when the gastric pains struck. got told off but oh well, will try to not do it again eh/ sorry!

felt like some baggage and intruder of some sort sometime earlier this week for the smallest of reasons. but at that moment, it felt significant; to me anyway and i finally banished all such thoughts after much self convincing. and hah i'm getting better at this.

oh oh! i nearly forgot. i had a major mosquitoe-bite bleeding session today during physics tutorial. only realised i was bleeding when i got the blood onto my gp worksheet.

i'm such a pathethic soul you've to remind me to tell you why.

randomness again but ahh.
living for the weekend.

'wans

Tuesday, February 21, 2006
20:50

why aim for forever when all you get's loss of faith at the end of it all?

this's the 8346th time this year i'm complaining how just very tired i am, but i really wish i can sleep for a million years and not wake up. just so you know, my splendid mood has been edging away slowly since monday. dont ask me why.

two posts in a day is never a good sign.

yikes!!!

00:38

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUAH!

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your life to rescue me

(:
i love you darl!
and right this moment, i'm churning your birthday card out. the one and only specialised card that is totally pricesless --grins-

'wans

Monday, February 20, 2006
19:23

Contrary to what others always think, I do come online! Just as and when i like it though (:

It's the start of another new week and as usual, I'm struggling under a pile of tutorials waiting to be completed. But I'm proud to say that they are not overdue. However in this crucial year, I got to be ahead of the teacher, and I think that means being a nerd. Or I will never catch any ball, I swear! Watch me, I'm in the process of transforming into one! (:

So I just know that Mrs Soon will go through and COMPLETE the random variable tutorial by the end of this week. WHICH MEANS I got to go offline and eat my dinner and attempt it after that. Grr.

I wonder if it's too late to make resolutions. I really don't want to give myself a chance to say "I should have________[fill in the blank yourself, something regarding studies]" come next year when I collect my result.

I swear I will get my tutorials on track and not blame Mrs Kuah for my lousy Chemistry standard.

Photo update! (:


Jo and i at the ac funfair, sunflower for gen! (:


Guess who is this?


He's so happily showing off his army IC! Haha!


I think he looks better with hair. haha.


I know I know, bad photography! I will improve, yes I will!


I love. (:


Hua yu ku! :D


Haha such a long entry!


Listening to soppy boy bands songs puts me in a good mood (:

Sunday, February 19, 2006
20:31

today qiu and i finally went for tuition together, after 87239827 seperate tuition classes.
it was just like the old times (: and man, do i miss those days! we were recollecting what we did back in st nicks' and looking at a particular zies+2 video (where we were all so horrendous looking save for eiz) tickled us to no end.

oh i miss.

and yes yes, the triumph over manutd at anfield yesterday did make my day an extra fabulous one. i wish every saturday's like that.

anyway i'm going back to hit the books. i've a chem common test coming up tomorrow and i'm darn worried. dont ask me why but the unspoken expectations are already threatening to strangle every wee bit of the determination out of me. no one's saying anything, but the silent stares and the hurried whispers are all that i can take, for now.

yes, i'm a repeat student.
and what? hear me roar?

'wans

Saturday, February 18, 2006
18:00

every saturday should be like today (:

'wans

Friday, February 17, 2006
21:34

six!
woohoo :D

'wans

13:25

Just that two words say alot. It's so sad how the two of them drifted apart after so many years of friendship [more than 10 years if i'm not wrong], and she still remembers her birthday. I dont think they will ever forget each other's birthday though, never will. Exactly how it happened i don't know, but i know enough to realise that their friendship can never be salvaged. Both of them can go about their daily routines normally and i'm sure, making new friends along the way. However, i doubt they will ever find another soul mate like one another. It's hard to be best friends, but i believe it's even harder to maintain it for ten over years. I hope i can do it.

Many sort of break-ups stem from misunderstandings, who to blame but the parties involved. It's such a poison, this weird thing. A slow kill poison, i must say. A friendship with strong foundation will never crack just because of one misunderstanding. And when one ugly incident happens, it's like a domino effect. It collaspes from there. I hope that will never happen to the friends around me, especially to me. It's too ugly and shocking a thing for me to take it. I don't think i will ever recover from it, should it happen.


qiu.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006
22:42

i'm feeling a bit grumpy after taking the flu medicine. :( is flu medicine supposed to have this effect?

vday was yesterday but i want to share my love with everyone! abundance of love! (: thanks to everyone for all my presents! nice nice!

shit my sentences are getting disjointedd ):

MUI KOON SCRATCHED MY HEAD TODAY.

i wonder if she will do the same. haha.

it was fun at j8 today. but then again, anytime spent with my gang is fun (:


[qiu]

Tuesday, February 14, 2006
22:25

It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
and I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control

It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

To you.

oh i love.

'wans

Monday, February 13, 2006
21:31

to break the silence with a knife,
to walk on shards of glass and watch me bleed.

and when the stars come out to play today,
you wont be there to catch me as i fall.

'wans

Sunday, February 12, 2006
23:25

i'm sorry and i wish i can take everything back.

i'm guilty and i'm scared and i'm all alone now.

you're my champagne supernova,
always will be.

please?


'wans

14:55

i shall try to recall events that happened in the chronological order (:

lo hei at pei's house on friday was the ultimate. haha and i feel darn bad for inflicting pain on kianbock though it did seem like he deserved everything at that point of time :D most of us managed to win anyway, or broke even eventually if last week's loss was taken into consideration --grins- haha i must thank lana! haah you extremely lucky girl :D

mood swings are scary. the slightest provoke caused my temper to flare. haha like how a simple word of 'relax' caused me to snap. which reminds me, i'm only fierce to people i dont like very much. if you think you're real chummy with me, think again. have you done something real irritating lately to cause this change of attitude in me? ahh, bite me. the complexity of such situations and me actually bothering to go to such lengths to explain myself is causing a headache.

back to events.
the lapping waves, dancing breeze, scatter of stars and the perfect company on a friday evening is my idea of paradise :D haha i think everyone should experience sentosa in its most quiet moment: simply beauitiful.

sent my sister off yesterday night. i'm not going to see her in another year or so and man, do i miss her already.

major changes are coming right up and i dont like it very much. oh well!

'wans
place you hand in mine and
and what!

Friday, February 10, 2006
00:19

it's that time of the year again, vday presents preparartion period! so it was off to ikea for pei lana (oh hello!!! :D) xiaoliang qiu jo dj and i.
enroute, somebody slipped and fell down the steps of some overhead bridge and another person was labelled suaku socks. this another person is the most embarrassing person i've ever met, after mui and before qiu. --grins-
oh and i've a new bear (: it was love at first sight. i'm going to lug him along whenever i travel from now on (: haha!

zodiac and horoscope: infidelity, deceit and disloyalty, wearing emerals on the left, money and love; matters of the heart, shunning the limelight and of course, the usual stubborness.
i love reading stuff like this and then marvel at its accuracy after that or ponder over the lack thereof. i'm quite an airhead, i know.

i feel like i've just lost some friends, after donning a different shade of glasses altogether.

i still cant make up my mind because you make me feel all weirded out, thank you very much. like 'it's going to be better if you aint...'

listening to sad chinese songs put me in a self-pitying mood.

i want to go running along the beach till my lungs burst and i collapse.

i pray and hope everything goes well for my dear friend later, not taking sides but my heart's with her. oh dear.

off to bed and if i can go back into time, i'll change:

nothing. not even the retention.

completely random post but i dont care. stomach hurts, aching everywhere and i'm super tired. but well, i'm officially on temporary leave of absence from school from today to wed. oh yay.

'wans
get happy, please.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006
21:28

we created such a ruckus at the takashimaya food court today it's a wonder the other patrons didnt applaude our departure :D
jo and i both think we deserve three purple stars each for our courage and bravery for getting this close to mui, pei and qiu.

mood swings are here again and i'm trying my best to counter them.
never a fan of such irritating chemical reactions.
wham!

SUPERFICIALITY'S THE MOST DISGUSTING THING IN THE WORLD YOU STUPID IDIOTIC DESPERATE IDIOTS!

there, i feel much better now.

'wans

Monday, February 06, 2006
20:10

release of the o level results is on friday and this means i've another week of school to plough through, complete with tutorials, topical tests and some physics challenge (and i swear my group's rocketish-plane model cant fly for nuts) the thought itself is pretty much yikey.
anyway i hope my brother does well enough to get into the faculty and poly of his choice. he deserves to be happy, i think. yes, he does (:

laughing too much for a period of time sends me spiralling into the moody mode straight after. cant think, cant feel and all i want to do is keep quiet and watch the world go by.
was a little mad today, went on a rampage and terrorised dj.
but oh well, he does owe me something. hah.

i'm still tired. cant wait for school to be out.

things that can cheer me up:




cant think of any --shrugs-


havent got enough to purchase your smile.

'wans

Friday, February 03, 2006
22:52

while running today i kept imagining myself falling down hard on the stones and scrapping my knees raw and bloody. quite sadistic of me, i was told.
but still ran at a good pace, garnered a tenth placing (:
with an aching butt, 2 aching arms and my legs! tired. wahh.

i'm so tired, i can sleep for a million years and not wake up.

you make me sad, sometimes.


'wans