Tuesday, July 26, 2005
i will give anything to play competitive soccer again.i want to be all sweaty and smelly and grassy after trainingi want my usual drink of H2O after traininghmm i don't think it'd ever taste the same!and i dont even mind the weird and really hideous tan line on my shoulderrah, kind of random and late but still.so many things have happened lately that i barely have time to stop and thinkso disturbing. :/i find myself sinking into a funk more often than notand when i'm not down and out, i'd be so high that i dont really know what i'm doing. haha.so weird eh? sigh. i like it better when i talk alot. going to school is just like a routine though i really look forward to the company of my class and pedofives((:they are what makes my days in aj much much better. every week passes so quickly it scares me :/this means that promos are nearer and nearerit will be my biggest nightmare come true if i were to get retainedso i always feel the need to mug. i repeat, NEED. haha.whee! i need to shop! ((: bye world, time to hit the books.qiu:)por! i'm up for watching heartache on tv!((: and can we change the flavour of ice cream a little bit? we buy the type that has 2 flavour in one tub? the half side one flavour the other half another flavour? i want cookies and creme!((: love you dear! and chin up, the world is still beautiful! raah, did i ever tell anyone i'm random?
i want to eat chocolate ice cream and watch heartache on tv.
any takers?
--wans
you made my day today.
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
wake me up when september ends
((:
it's part of a song silly!
and i really really dislike liars.--wans
Monday, July 25, 2005
i'm speeding down the highway to self destruction and i've absolutely no idea how to stop myself from killing myself.
i'm wasting away; not eating right, not sleeping well.
others seek refuge in their sleep, i try my darnest to sleep as little as possible to escape from the nightmares.
either that or i dont sleep well at all.
might as well not sleep aye.
therefore my mum said no to me donating blood.
oh well.
the happy little facade fades away quickly.
you've no idea how you're breaking me down, tearing me apart and wearing me out.
close my eyes, cover my ears and walk away; whichever.
i dont care, as long as i get away from you.
replies to tags:
dj: ahha now your name's the biggest aye! be nice to me.
quah: --hugs tight- we're going to mug hard aye? and we can go terrorise the vending machine again anytime! --grins- have i told you that i'm super darn glad i've you by my side?
guoxing: thanks for everything and you dont have to worry abt me. really.
diana: of course! anytime aye? --love much
harry: i like i like i like it too! (:
yvonne: ((: what a nice surprise! --smiles- yeah i was in purple alright! where was i? thomson? so stupid of me to have not heard both of you! aiyah!
pam/my math lect affair: i've your cert with me! and do remember to keep 26-27aug free aye? i missed and miss you. LOVE!
happy belated sweet seventeenth dj!i know this's late, but hey!i've compensated by wishing you happy birthday a million times--grins-life's beautiful when you're around (ony when you aint teasing me abt you-know-who)hah!
Friday, July 22, 2005
mug mug mug mug mug mug.
MUG!
that's what my life had been revolving around these days.
mundane and stupid and pointless and loserish but i've got a task to accomplish.
((:
and i've got a partner to mug with me: quah!
whee!
i think i'm a rather jolly misanthrope.
disliking people on sight's so darn superficial but i like it.
i told you i'm bitchy and i'm mean.
haha random thoughts.
i had a dream that i
was falling from the sky
at 90 miles an hour
i was bound to crash and die
but out of nowhere you came and rescued me
there must be some grace in the touch of your face
i'm so happy that i've found you
i'm no longer afraid.
i love this song.
dont ask me why but i think freefalling from the sky's pretty exciting.
whee!
--wans
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
i hate school.
sticks in the mud; all of them.
BIG sticks in the mud.
we got pulled out of the tournament because of our results.
bloody blahh.
i know we promised to get like really good results to continue playing in the tournament but hello! do they even realise that soccer trainings have absolutely nothing to do with our results?
suckers :/
complain complain complain.
no lifers!
ARGH!
you know what?
he can take it away from us for now, precious as it is.
BUT
we're coming back; bigger, better and stronger aye?
we're coming back, even if it means kicking him hard in the groin.
urgh.
yikes.
make that double yikes! (yikes-yikes)
haha.
van fiona pei jo quah qiu isa joyce wans shiyun siyun gail gwen
adib jiewei boon guoxing
mrstoh mrtrev mrmohan
((:
aj female soccer for always (:
anyway
dj showed me a song, in his attempt to make me smile:
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
((:
i'm smiling.
gotta see the bright side of life anyway!
whee :D
at least we've the memories and the friendship aye?
NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT FROM US, NEVER.
i love twee.
Friday, July 15, 2005
match against sa tmr and the team's pretty psyched up ((:
i think, haha!
think this's going to be our toughest match in the tournament
my gp tutor (whose name i cant disclose on the www) was telling us abt the neurological groove concept today
eg. laughing therapy: laughing helps release endorphins/happy chemicals and make you happy
eg. if you think you can, you can!
GO AJ GIRLS' SOCCER!
wish us luck!
:D
i love gp; i'm in awe of how much i dont know half the time
--grins-
i'm going to miss him when he's gone
ahh.
listening to 'why' again.
haha the song's pretty much stuck in my head these days :D
going down to ecp to support them tmr
GO ETERNAL LOOP!
whee!
i'm going off to catch up on my zzzs soon
gotta wake up at an unearthly hour: 0500!
yikes.
need my stamina and full concentration for the game, esp since i've a funny joint problem. it only hurts like crazy when i sit down for too long or my foot is not placed on level ground and stuff. that was why i was standing at the back of the audi during chem lecture today ((: was so embarrassing you know -- having hundreds of pairs of eyes watching me make my slow progress up the steps.
oh well, at least the pain left after a while
:D
and to all those people who were so anxious abt my condition:
thanks and i love you all
yay!
i'm happy today.
come release my happy chemicals!
hah
--wans
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
match against nj was ((:
we played rather well though there's much room for improvement
--grins-
go aj go!
too tired to blog more
have been sleeping really late these days.
i dont think i've slept any longer than 6h ever since i came back
:/
yikes!
happy sweet seventeenth, jo!you know i love you, i really do.surprises coming your way soon!--hugs tight-
Monday, July 11, 2005
haha you know i'm listening to 'why' by eternal loop for the 20th time and i'm still loving it.
:D
yay!
harry are you reading this?
i'm loving it!
if only i could push all those thoughts away i think i'll be happier.
then i wont be daydreaming about my little wish that involves a thousand sleeping pills.
sometimes the pressure's so great; giving up is so darn tempting you know.
the only things stopping me from stealing the credit cards and sharing my rich husband with jo and quah are my friends and my family's disappointment.
and fear.
(haha my gp tutor's going to be so exasperated over the fact that i'm still terrified of the unknown after all the prep talk he gave us)
match's on wed.
wish us luck.
(:
replies to tag:
aaron: EVIL TWIN!
guoxing: :D you know what i'm going to thank you for ((:
joyce: i love my ah mah
jo and quah: nah i wont leave you all out of my big escape plan. we're going to share the wealth aye? --grins-
diana: haha must be lah!
cheelim: because the lt3's special to us both?
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine ahead has caught my eye
And roped me in so mesmerizing
It's so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so
Isolated so
Motivated
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
So tired of the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim
Against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away So let me slip away:/
i'll reply to the tags another time.
--wans
Thursday, July 07, 2005
i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it
I HATE IT!i've a death wish and it involves a thousand sleeping pills.aint afraid of swallowing those little pills.then even if they try their darnest to pump my stomach, they wont be able to extract nothinghah.can envision myself pulling out my hair and banging my head against the wall.then i'll quit school and drop out of sight, grab my dad's credit cards and fly away to somewhere, where i'll bus tables and try my best to become the head waitress[meanwhile i'll try to hook up with some rich man and live hapily after]:/wake me up when the nightmare's over.you tempt me and turn me off at the same time.)):i dont like this, not at all.aint no headlights on the road tonight, aint nobody here to make it right.
)):
--wans (for the benefit of my dearest ah mah)
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
if you dont want to keep me informed, that's fine
because i wish i've never known you too
erasing the memories will be so darn cool
like with a snap of the fingers and you're a complete stranger
yay.
and it's so weird how i'm used to all the crap whenever it's that time of the month.
but if i were to blow up just because you're that predictable will just prove how short a fuse i have.
i'm not that intolerable of such mood swings,
i just cant be too patient.
get it?
it's okay.
harry; haha quit soccer now? then our team will be incomplete plus i've been training hard ((:
guoxing; :D thank you
Saturday, July 02, 2005
well, i've been back for more than a week!
((:
you know flying away and satisfying my wanderlust's good, but coming home's way better!
havent got chance to update since it had been crazy ever since i touched town-
common tests were crazy.
crazily hard; and there's no need for elaboration.
heh all the knowledge began eating up the insides of my head after a while.
the only subject i'm confident of passing?
gp.
hah take that!
taking neos with the pedofives with no time limit was a total blast.
seeking airhead movie therapy with jo was a fantabulous idea.
lunch out with van jo qiu and pei was great, as usual.
soccer was bad because i havent been training in a long while.
understandable i guess.
but then i was being a total prick abt it.
abt how i wanted to drop out because i dont want to drag the team down and stuff
but
i dont know.
:/
will see how.
but i'm not going to drop out anymore.
i miss the good old days.
like when i was young and innocent and free of worries.
when i was guilt-free.
:/
london picts will be up soon.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
i will give anything to play competitive soccer again.i want to be all sweaty and smelly and grassy after trainingi want my usual drink of H2O after traininghmm i don't think it'd ever taste the same!and i dont even mind the weird and really hideous tan line on my shoulderrah, kind of random and late but still.so many things have happened lately that i barely have time to stop and thinkso disturbing. :/i find myself sinking into a funk more often than notand when i'm not down and out, i'd be so high that i dont really know what i'm doing. haha.so weird eh? sigh. i like it better when i talk alot. going to school is just like a routine though i really look forward to the company of my class and pedofives((:they are what makes my days in aj much much better. every week passes so quickly it scares me :/this means that promos are nearer and nearerit will be my biggest nightmare come true if i were to get retainedso i always feel the need to mug. i repeat, NEED. haha.whee! i need to shop! ((: bye world, time to hit the books.qiu:)por! i'm up for watching heartache on tv!((: and can we change the flavour of ice cream a little bit? we buy the type that has 2 flavour in one tub? the half side one flavour the other half another flavour? i want cookies and creme!((: love you dear! and chin up, the world is still beautiful! raah, did i ever tell anyone i'm random?
i want to eat chocolate ice cream and watch heartache on tv.
any takers?
--wans
you made my day today.
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
wake me up when september ends
((:
it's part of a song silly!
and i really really dislike liars.--wans
Monday, July 25, 2005
i'm speeding down the highway to self destruction and i've absolutely no idea how to stop myself from killing myself.
i'm wasting away; not eating right, not sleeping well.
others seek refuge in their sleep, i try my darnest to sleep as little as possible to escape from the nightmares.
either that or i dont sleep well at all.
might as well not sleep aye.
therefore my mum said no to me donating blood.
oh well.
the happy little facade fades away quickly.
you've no idea how you're breaking me down, tearing me apart and wearing me out.
close my eyes, cover my ears and walk away; whichever.
i dont care, as long as i get away from you.
replies to tags:
dj: ahha now your name's the biggest aye! be nice to me.
quah: --hugs tight- we're going to mug hard aye? and we can go terrorise the vending machine again anytime! --grins- have i told you that i'm super darn glad i've you by my side?
guoxing: thanks for everything and you dont have to worry abt me. really.
diana: of course! anytime aye? --love much
harry: i like i like i like it too! (:
yvonne: ((: what a nice surprise! --smiles- yeah i was in purple alright! where was i? thomson? so stupid of me to have not heard both of you! aiyah!
pam/my math lect affair: i've your cert with me! and do remember to keep 26-27aug free aye? i missed and miss you. LOVE!
happy belated sweet seventeenth dj!i know this's late, but hey!i've compensated by wishing you happy birthday a million times--grins-life's beautiful when you're around (ony when you aint teasing me abt you-know-who)hah!
Friday, July 22, 2005
mug mug mug mug mug mug.
MUG!
that's what my life had been revolving around these days.
mundane and stupid and pointless and loserish but i've got a task to accomplish.
((:
and i've got a partner to mug with me: quah!
whee!
i think i'm a rather jolly misanthrope.
disliking people on sight's so darn superficial but i like it.
i told you i'm bitchy and i'm mean.
haha random thoughts.
i had a dream that i
was falling from the sky
at 90 miles an hour
i was bound to crash and die
but out of nowhere you came and rescued me
there must be some grace in the touch of your face
i'm so happy that i've found you
i'm no longer afraid.
i love this song.
dont ask me why but i think freefalling from the sky's pretty exciting.
whee!
--wans
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
i hate school.
sticks in the mud; all of them.
BIG sticks in the mud.
we got pulled out of the tournament because of our results.
bloody blahh.
i know we promised to get like really good results to continue playing in the tournament but hello! do they even realise that soccer trainings have absolutely nothing to do with our results?
suckers :/
complain complain complain.
no lifers!
ARGH!
you know what?
he can take it away from us for now, precious as it is.
BUT
we're coming back; bigger, better and stronger aye?
we're coming back, even if it means kicking him hard in the groin.
urgh.
yikes.
make that double yikes! (yikes-yikes)
haha.
van fiona pei jo quah qiu isa joyce wans shiyun siyun gail gwen
adib jiewei boon guoxing
mrstoh mrtrev mrmohan
((:
aj female soccer for always (:
anyway
dj showed me a song, in his attempt to make me smile:
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
((:
i'm smiling.
gotta see the bright side of life anyway!
whee :D
at least we've the memories and the friendship aye?
NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT FROM US, NEVER.
i love twee.
Friday, July 15, 2005
match against sa tmr and the team's pretty psyched up ((:
i think, haha!
think this's going to be our toughest match in the tournament
my gp tutor (whose name i cant disclose on the www) was telling us abt the neurological groove concept today
eg. laughing therapy: laughing helps release endorphins/happy chemicals and make you happy
eg. if you think you can, you can!
GO AJ GIRLS' SOCCER!
wish us luck!
:D
i love gp; i'm in awe of how much i dont know half the time
--grins-
i'm going to miss him when he's gone
ahh.
listening to 'why' again.
haha the song's pretty much stuck in my head these days :D
going down to ecp to support them tmr
GO ETERNAL LOOP!
whee!
i'm going off to catch up on my zzzs soon
gotta wake up at an unearthly hour: 0500!
yikes.
need my stamina and full concentration for the game, esp since i've a funny joint problem. it only hurts like crazy when i sit down for too long or my foot is not placed on level ground and stuff. that was why i was standing at the back of the audi during chem lecture today ((: was so embarrassing you know -- having hundreds of pairs of eyes watching me make my slow progress up the steps.
oh well, at least the pain left after a while
:D
and to all those people who were so anxious abt my condition:
thanks and i love you all
yay!
i'm happy today.
come release my happy chemicals!
hah
--wans
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
match against nj was ((:
we played rather well though there's much room for improvement
--grins-
go aj go!
too tired to blog more
have been sleeping really late these days.
i dont think i've slept any longer than 6h ever since i came back
:/
yikes!
happy sweet seventeenth, jo!you know i love you, i really do.surprises coming your way soon!--hugs tight-
Monday, July 11, 2005
haha you know i'm listening to 'why' by eternal loop for the 20th time and i'm still loving it.
:D
yay!
harry are you reading this?
i'm loving it!
if only i could push all those thoughts away i think i'll be happier.
then i wont be daydreaming about my little wish that involves a thousand sleeping pills.
sometimes the pressure's so great; giving up is so darn tempting you know.
the only things stopping me from stealing the credit cards and sharing my rich husband with jo and quah are my friends and my family's disappointment.
and fear.
(haha my gp tutor's going to be so exasperated over the fact that i'm still terrified of the unknown after all the prep talk he gave us)
match's on wed.
wish us luck.
(:
replies to tag:
aaron: EVIL TWIN!
guoxing: :D you know what i'm going to thank you for ((:
joyce: i love my ah mah
jo and quah: nah i wont leave you all out of my big escape plan. we're going to share the wealth aye? --grins-
diana: haha must be lah!
cheelim: because the lt3's special to us both?
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine ahead has caught my eye
And roped me in so mesmerizing
It's so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so
Isolated so
Motivated
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
So tired of the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim
Against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away So let me slip away:/
i'll reply to the tags another time.
--wans
Thursday, July 07, 2005
i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it
I HATE IT!i've a death wish and it involves a thousand sleeping pills.aint afraid of swallowing those little pills.then even if they try their darnest to pump my stomach, they wont be able to extract nothinghah.can envision myself pulling out my hair and banging my head against the wall.then i'll quit school and drop out of sight, grab my dad's credit cards and fly away to somewhere, where i'll bus tables and try my best to become the head waitress[meanwhile i'll try to hook up with some rich man and live hapily after]:/wake me up when the nightmare's over.you tempt me and turn me off at the same time.)):i dont like this, not at all.aint no headlights on the road tonight, aint nobody here to make it right.
)):
--wans (for the benefit of my dearest ah mah)
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
if you dont want to keep me informed, that's fine
because i wish i've never known you too
erasing the memories will be so darn cool
like with a snap of the fingers and you're a complete stranger
yay.
and it's so weird how i'm used to all the crap whenever it's that time of the month.
but if i were to blow up just because you're that predictable will just prove how short a fuse i have.
i'm not that intolerable of such mood swings,
i just cant be too patient.
get it?
it's okay.
harry; haha quit soccer now? then our team will be incomplete plus i've been training hard ((:
guoxing; :D thank you
Saturday, July 02, 2005
well, i've been back for more than a week!
((:
you know flying away and satisfying my wanderlust's good, but coming home's way better!
havent got chance to update since it had been crazy ever since i touched town-
common tests were crazy.
crazily hard; and there's no need for elaboration.
heh all the knowledge began eating up the insides of my head after a while.
the only subject i'm confident of passing?
gp.
hah take that!
taking neos with the pedofives with no time limit was a total blast.
seeking airhead movie therapy with jo was a fantabulous idea.
lunch out with van jo qiu and pei was great, as usual.
soccer was bad because i havent been training in a long while.
understandable i guess.
but then i was being a total prick abt it.
abt how i wanted to drop out because i dont want to drag the team down and stuff
but
i dont know.
:/
will see how.
but i'm not going to drop out anymore.
i miss the good old days.
like when i was young and innocent and free of worries.
when i was guilt-free.
:/
london picts will be up soon.
